:: a Gift of Love
I know Valentine’s Day is a month past, but I want to share with you the story of a special yellow rose. This pretty flower was one of a dozen - a gift from my love. Yellow roses have always been special to me. A favourite, I carried when we were married, 46 years ago now. So when he is able to purchase them he brings a dozen home. So special, so beautiful.
Despite proper care eleven of the flowers soon faded, never fully opening. They just gave up, and never even tried to bloom. One rose, however, drew up water, slowly expanded and became the beautiful flower you see here. It sat on my desk beside me into the first week of March. Seeing it whilst I work on the computer or write in my journal makes my desk a comforting place.
I have labelled this a strong rose. Delicate, velvety, emitting a rose's alluring scent, yes, but this was a determined rose, a strong rose. The rest of the dozen just sat. They were in the same water, but never became what they were meant to be.
I would love to say I am like that one rose, ever taking advantage of all life have given me. Sadly, I have been up and down all my life. Between depression, then Bipolar II diagnosis my life seems to be full of dark low spots. Full of projects started and never finished, a house full of chaos, periods I just couldn’t stop moving to times I would not move for days. I would wonder if taking lithium was worth it; I missed the highs.
Through everything, it is a blessing to have my husband ... my hero through all that has been my life since high school. The bearer of yellow roses, iced coffee and chocolate covered coffee beans. So, today I am going to be more like this yellow rose. To blossom here, now, where I am, no matter what I am feeling. This will be my goal. To spread petals out to the sun, no matter the chaos, no matter the mistakes. No matter how dark I feel the day is around me, I will remember this little rose.
a profoundly thankful,
Zuzia
{I love you, my Hero.}
Stay Calm, Be Brave, Know You are Loved! With love,
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jgs / |`= the Little Brown Bird